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ぜんかい -- ゼンカイ
no longer yearning. what have we not done before?
"the world is really but the stage - create the most fulfilling play"
If you're a thief, master the art of thievery.
A psychotic mind leaves no room for regrets.
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Zheng Kai
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Friday, February 22, 2008
Many things in this world are just strange. Sometimes things make a huge roundabout before returning to where they are supposed to be. Nevertheless, this intricate process of time is of all necessity. Fate once again has had its ways, and things you thought you lost return to you; things you thought you had perhaps were never there.
Interest can be lost, interest can be gained. My family has been tackled lately by this seemingly mind-boggling issue of what CCA my brother should stick with. And from what I see, it take many hands to clap here and things aren't settling down anytime soon.
On the other end of my life, I'm having a lot of fun in my progression in driving as well as tonking on my new love (the keyboard resting beside my bed).
This is the period of time I term a "bi-polar switch" in my life. My focus, commitment and passion takes a major turn to choir once again. That's a comfortable window before the competition in 3 weeks. Anyhoos, any room for improvement and less-than-perfect singing is definitely welcomed, for when things are too good they tend to take a down turn shortly after peaking.
Happy birthday to Jasmine and Roger too! xD
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Today's all black.. I don't mean my mood or the sky, but the color of my clothes. Believe it or not, my family's fengshui master says my lucky colors for this year are black and blue. Damn boring, but oh well. Never really wore all black before, except for performances, but hell, its hot (as in temperature hot).
Went to Central to meet Thomas, Jerold and Roy and couldn't believe why a person like me haven't been to Central at all.. The whole place reeks of Jap - jap restaurants, jap supermarkets, jap concept store. Gosh, must make this my new hangout. Lunch next week definitely gonna be here. Anyhoo, ate lunch at Pasta de Waraku (looking at the plates outside already made it appetizing), definitely coming back to try the prawn thingy Jerold ordered.
Its been a long time since I kept in touch with the drama peeps, felt really good today stepping back into Cat High and its memory-filled auditorium. They had this new trainer called Engie, who's really fun; hoped the sec 1s had fun in their first take at acting. Not sure if I could still act like before, but I must say I'm really tempted by the big stage xD. Other random events that happened is that everyone claimed this guy called Yeung Kai is my incarnate; I don't quite understand or see how he looks like me though, but I will try to go back again to see why they think so. Oh and Thomas could bake nice cookies, (oh gosh, am I the only one who doesn't know how to?) haha..
Choir-ed later on, not a bad practice too, with all the lou-hei-ing happening and bringing Kwei bad luck for the sale of his property haha... Did all the 6 songs with satisfactory achievements, but still a long way to go. And honestly, thats what I like, it means we are going to improve and seeing that improvement will spur everyone and motivate everyone to do miracles once again. Hope everything turns out well. =D
Oh gosh, been spending too much, card bill came just now and I spent a total of almost 500 bucks just in January. And worse, thats just the Mastercard bill, haven't count in Nets or cash withdrawals. =x Was really tempted to buy a Canon IXUS 860IS but now decided should just get the N82, since it has a 5 mega-pix cam and thats sufficient, plus I'm really sick of my trade-in price dropping exponentially. I'm not a camera person to begin with, just likes to cam-whore xD. So yeah, this settles it. (Opps and I bought a new watch today =x)
Happy birthday to mankind and to Eugene of course haha. Tomorrow's the ultra-commercialised VDAY! Not that I have anything to look forward to other than my singletons outing!! haha...
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Saturday, February 09, 2008
Development. Progress. Time. 3 words that probably summed up the 'thing' in everything per se. 3 things we cannot escape no matter what our decisions and resolutions are.
Witnessing the connection gave me a strange feeling, no doubt. Through fatigue and all, it seemed to give some strength and dexterity to go on, but strangely, this very same strength seemed to be sucked out dry slowly and unadmittedly painfully from those around. But not doubt, lessons and conclusions can be once again gleamed from an unusual and interesting custom.
CNY is indeed unusual to me, because obviously, it does not happen every other day. It comes and go with great anticipation to differing individuals at different times of their lives. This CNY felt different for me, almost completely different. Other than the fact that too many things have happened in between for me to half-forget what happened last CNY, many other first-times have been achieved this year. Experiences of firsts, feelings of firsts, speeches of firsts, and beliefs of firsts.
I shall not go into a detailed personal account of how I celebrated mine, but I know I could almost call this year a mahjong-filled one! Honestly, I'm knocked out and have long forgotten the purpose of this post. May I now sincerely wish all a happy lunar new year blessed with good health, luck and prosperity!
And... it still amazes me how Murakami's books depict sex in such stunning casualness.
Perhaps its the conflict of interest among mankind, thats the most stunning and intriguing once again.
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Tuesday, February 05, 2008
It's been a hectic weekend with lots of changes to Italy flight arrangements. Seriously, I'm getting a sore throat from all that explanation to the rest of the seniors. I really wonder how the teachers do it everyday. Lol.
Now that Kwei officially intensified practices and started to show signs of frustrations and worry, we can tell it is once again the time for a competition. One that will not only bond everyone under the fury of the man, but will ease their souls with the sense of accomplishments at the end of the journey. It is really interesting to me, I mean, I signed up for Italy because I wanted to experience that 'trauma' of getting ready for a competition all over again. But since graduating, that feeling might have been a little too complacent and now we seem to comfortable and take many things for granted. Now that Kwei's showing the eye, it ironically calms me, gives me a sense of nostalgia that all these were my exact past, my history, my memories.
It is that renewed feeling of love for song that we all need. Watching an ambitious choir on Arts Central might be one thing, feeling it in your own choir, your own song is another. We need that spark, and we have approximately 4 weeks to search for it. May it be found, and may the exponential progress begin, or the frowns and tears will soon be abound.
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Friday, February 01, 2008
For starters, I am really not used to my frequency of blogging this week. But since I have something to say, why not? Anyway, things have definitely turned for the better, and once again this proved my wait and patience, coupled by my optimism, has led me to somewhere at least. No doubt someone told me I might go crazy before anything, but oh well. It didn't. Either that, or I am already crazy as it is. But still, I am really relieved that Yuhuai can go to Italy now. Neither party would be really happy if thats not the case. It was a nice good general feelings, with good things and things to look forward to sprouting from almost every corner. Things, as I might say, have turned refreshing. Whoever will ever think that the silly crazed bunch of us, most often known to only go online to book movie tickets, would know be dabbling in the world of aviation. Yeah..and I'm talking about air tickets to Europe and back costing by the thousands. Refreshing development. Even the senior group who wants to extend is expanding. But I'm seriously still quite worried for them. As in their safety. I've travelled to Europe before, but I know no other place is as dangerous and unpredictable as Italy. Especially the period of time we are going - in the middle of Good Friday and Easter Sunday - all the more makes it a really complicated senario here. Now I have 3 plans. Plan A: book my own air ticket on SQ from SIN to MILAN using Krisflyer miles and come back with the main group flying Emirates. Plan B: book my own air ticket on SQ both from SIN to MILAN and back from ROME to SIN. All using Krisflyer miles too. Plan C: Stick to the orginal plan the school had for us. Everything remains status quo. Subject to changes on the school and agent's side. CNY is coming, and suddenly there are many things to do..unfinished businesses maybe. Apart from the notion of getting angbows and money, I'm pretty sure CNY was meant as a festival of reunion for people too. That brings me back to a point I've been procrastinating for the past few weeks - I have not bought my new year clothes, or at least in everything I've bought recently, red doesn't take a place. Next, I'm pretty excited to know that this year I will be meeting my old friends, whether they are already enlisted in the army or not, there will be a reunion for everyone to come together. Even the meeting of teachers inclusive. CNY is another New Year to me, perhaps even more meaningful and impactful than the real new year that hit all mankind on the 1st of Jan. For one, I was nuah-ing away on New Year due to a lack of parties but now I'm really looking forward to the festivities of CNY. It will really be a new start for me as an grand, really red entrance into 2008. That is perhaps the reason why I really respect this festival. I believe whatever it is, things will only show a change, a solid one, after CNY. Perhaps it is my traditional and superstitious me shouting out again. But sometimes, it is indeed better to believe it than not. Hahah.. I was just reading my old blog entries since 2005. I cannot believe I wrote them. i guess thats the most amazing part about growing part, doing silly things you never knew you did. Really, but I can't blame my past self for that, for at that time and place I was truly happy, feeling that way and being just plain content. It was truly me wherever I am. And I'm thankful for that. Not everyone can be themselves at any given time or place. I cannot believe it is already Feb 2008. Time is passing much faster than I thought when I'm working. Incredible. Come on, rock me on. Embrace!
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