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ぜんかい -- ゼンカイ
no longer yearning. what have we not done before?
"the world is really but the stage - create the most fulfilling play"
If you're a thief, master the art of thievery.
A psychotic mind leaves no room for regrets.
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Friday, January 27, 2006
The Night of the Day
Yesterday was Gerald's birthday! Happy birthday to him! We went to sakae to eat in honour of that as well. Had alot of fun! And guo wei finally met izhar face to face or something. hmm. nothing much happened in de day, or i sort of forgotten abt it le. all i noe is b4 that we called choir and mr kwei told us to lou more yu sheng for better o lvl results. and he said aj is expected to have even lower cut off points. means more difficult to get in la. goodness. nvm. everything is already decided by God. so let it be. the bulk of my entry shall be about today, the eve of the eve of CNY. read on...
Had a lot of mixed feelings today. Like another spectrum of emotions felt once again, but not exactly something pleasing or something I yearn to feel again. (unlike syf). Basically, I finally decided that poning school is useless so I went to school today. Actually, I also needed to pass newspapers to Jia Min and to accompany Roy in his crashing. Lol. So it sounded fun to me, mainly coz I never played host to a crasher before. So we met up and decided he should hide in the toilet during morning assembly. After that he followed me to attend physics and economics lecture. He takes exactly same combi as me in CJ so it sort of is useful to him. Just that AJ teach faster than CJ.
The physics lecturer was that Mr. Chan, that very funny and eh-hem one. Yah as usual he tends to suan other schools. This time he sounded like Mr. Lee by keep mentioning RJ in his suans. Lolx. Some funny stuff he said. Well at least it helped for those who tend to fall asleep during lectures. Best thing is that Mr. Chan jus totally asked Roy a question haha. And during the whole time, Roy was substituting the missing Hwee Beng, from 13/06 who was still on medical leave. LOL. Those 13/06 st nicks gals believed he was Hwee Beng and kept calling him that la. Lol. Econs was normal. Then break then celebration le.
During break our class ppl was like so comical, all trying to leave the school premises. Kept deliberating whether to really do so at the GO. Lol. Finally decided to try, then they walk until the guard house there, the guard apparently told them to turn back so they turned back LOL. It was so funny lor. Cat high ppl also la. Say wanna pon then in the end all so guai attend celebration later. Hmmm. But celebration not that bad la. Even Roy attended and said it was most probably gonna be better than CJ de. LOL. No offense to Douglas and timothy who is supposedly involved in the performance during CNY there.
After that was just like the exodus of students. Everyone was like going back their sec schools. Cat high ppl a lot went back lor. Mainly is CJ people never go back. Aiyoh they got lessons until 3pm or something. And that is very dumb. They should at least know their students are going back their secondary schools lor. Waved and said happy new year to a lot of teachers today. All of them still so friendly, so nice and everything. Ate lunch at school canteen too. Chatted with Aaron, Bryan, boon teck, Richard and guo wei about a lot of stuffs. NY ppl dun really love their school that much. They say they wanna come AJ instead. Haix dunno la. Results are nearing closer and closer and I really hope we can get it asap so we do everything once and for all and settle down totally. Now everything in front of us is like so misty, so unsettled. We need a sense of settlement lah. Cant jus drift and have fun/mug a bit (for some) during this whole period of time lor.. its so sianx.
Talking about changing school, I was seriously thinking about it for the next half of the day. I suddenly wanted to transfer to Temasek JC. Lol. Not because anyone said it was nice there, but mainly because NO ONE went there or something. LOL. All of a sudden it occurred to me I would probably prefer such a lifestyle, all my friends and comfort areas gone. Shipped all alone away to a whole new island of adventures and everything else. The feeling was intriguing. Really, I really pondered hard about that idea. On the mrt, on the way home, I dunno. I was thinking about something that probably will not happen. An alternate reality again, as I would term it.
I went home to bathe and change and prepare for ice skating. Met Joey, ken and kai quan at yio chu kang mrt station. Was late and had all 3 of them totally staring at me. Lol. Met Chris later at yishun mrt. Hmmm. Something memorable today would be what Joey said. On the train to jurong east, we were really bored so we were chatting and then we played this staring game. I was playing it with Joey when he suddenly said this, “Zheng kai, I dunno whether this is true or maybe all are just my imagination, but somehow staring into your eyes tells me a lot about a person. and staring hard into yours, I would probably say you are a person who have gone through quite a lot in life and more importantly, you are a person who thinks deep into things.” I was momentarily speechless because I never tot anyone would say this to me. Then, realizing he could be rite abt it, I agreed to his deduction. Then, I went into deep thought myself. I did go thru quite a lot. A lot of things other dont usually go through. But am I masking my past? Is there a need too? I dunno, perhaps my life experience has made me view things in life from a deeper perspective. Perhaps. It was really what I call a time well spent on a train traveling at a somehow monotonous pace. Thinking.
Sometimes you just look at a person and you can tell something about him. Its not about appearances or first impression or anything near the phrase ‘never judge a book by its cover’. True, I totally agree with that, especially coz JC life opened much talk about first impressions. (refer to tian xiang’s blog) but wad u see here thru the windows of another soul is something else, something much deeper, something which you can only feel, but may not exactly aptly describe it in words. Something which all of us can perhaps miraculously find a way to relate to as well. Its about this minute sense of telepathy in all humans. Some are jus over-sensitive. Some are ignorant, others jus simply don’t care.
So during the whole train ride I was in deep thought. Thinking about the JC thing, and also about this theories in life. Its philosophical, and that’s the stuff I like. The JC thing is coz im forced to think about it again and again. And then I still came to the conclusion that Ill stay. Hmmm. See what happens when the results are released.
So we finally reached jurong and we headed to ice skate. Saw that guy again. And now I found out his name, coz we interacted more this time. He’s called Kevin and he goes there like almost everyday. Lol. And best of all, he doesn’t need to pay a single cent coz he knows the boss or something. Haha. He tried to teach me other stuff today but I cant learn in time la.. >.< haha. Skated in total for about 3 hrs. I skated the most. Kai quan and ken second most. Joey was resting a lot coz his leg pain and Chris was changing his skates the whole time. Lol. Went off only about 8.40pm. haha. After the whole episode of thinking deep on the train, it was really good to de-stress through ice skating. That was what keeps me going back and again. Went off on a train back to bishan next, and crapped a lot. Haha. This time it wasn’t serious thinking but plain crap. It all started when I left my ice skating bag on the mrt floor and chucked it away below a seat. Then we started saying what happens if I forgot to take it with me when I leave. Then we decided it would cause widespread chaos and panic and the train will abruptly halt and everyone ordered to evacuate. Bomb-inspectors will arrive and send their robot-like thing to check the baggage, only to find a pair of ice skates. Mediacorp will send channelnewsasia and everything else to cover the news and my mum will jus go totally busy or something again lol. After news of it hits the front pages, then people will start writing in to the forum page abt their views and everything. Then we will have to do news commentaries on the incident during our GP lessons. LOL. Everything went on and on. Seems like the whole world is interconnected. And after all that everyone will be like wondering who is that idiot who left the bag there. And I will go like OPPS.
Anyway we ended up at interchange Mac to grab a bite. I was just casually chatting with ken and I told him that Kevin guy looks like a description of one of his many cousins and he jus went OMG. Coz he thought so too but just that he didn’t say it out and now I jus totally said it out for him Lol! In some ways, he also look like Eugene from 4-6, his other cousin. Its so funny lor!! I’m not really surprised if it really is, but I guess the truth will be out soon coz they will meet during Chinese New Year haha. That is something so amazing about Singapore. Anyone can just be related to you. Just like Donna who is xiao xuan classmate, my god-cousin or something. Then now this guy who we met at the ice skating rink for like 10 times, and a total stranger, might turn out to be ken long-distance cousin. LOL.
So many things have already happened sometimes we wonder if we can catch up in life. But guess what, there are sooo much more to come and I guess that life! LOL. Now, I just wanna wish everyone reading this entry a very HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!
Also, a very happy birthday to Roy who is turning 17 tomorrow!! woohoo..lol
"No man can say he is denied of love. For if he is a priest, love lies between him and god. For if he is homosexual, love lies between him and others of the same gender. And even for all those whom are too selfish to think of love, at least they know they love themselves."
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